thoughts.

it's a little surreal looking back at some of these entries, and thinking "wow, these words came out of my mouth" [okay, okay, mostly yours... you know i can't commit to writing posts. i'm a drive-by emotional blogger].  i can't believe that we now are literally on the last leg of the twentysomethings and of all the changes that we've been through in the last 10 years.  like move across the country changes, like finding new love changes, like BIG CHANGES changes... i guess it's all part of being twentysomething [and thirtysomething and fortysomething...].

something that stands out to me after reading some of my old posts is that even while i was in the midst of being twentysomething, i was too busy agonizing over being "older" to actually witness the miracle of opportunity waiting at my feet.  cest la vie.  it's seemingly easier to wait for change, than it is to go out and seek it... but is it really?  finally at 29, i feel like i am making changes... for me.  i finally feel comfortable in my own skin, and maybe that's just something that come with age and experience, who knows?  maybe it was necessary to experience the twentysomething angst of endless possibilities and an unwillingness to make real decisions in order to be where i am now.  i finally know me, and it gives me the courage to be me.

i am sure the thirtysomethings will bring on a whole new world of life changing events and issues, but for now, i am thrilled to have gotten to the tail end of the twenties with [some] grace and [a little] dignity.