and the countdown begins. a week until i'm officially in my late twenties. this should be interesting!
for the first year ever, i don't really want to celebrate my birthday. works out since i'll be heading to palm springs for a friend's bachelorette party on my bday anyhow, so, no big dinner and party this year. which is fine by me.
i wonder if i'll still wake up on my birthday (next to my friends and a bag of chips) and stretch and squeal. wonder if i'll ever get too old to feel giddy on the morning of.
life is so funny. how things work out or how some things don't work out. how you grow to REALLY appreciate your mom and her opinions, how you grow up ever so slightly and realize it at such random moments. that growing up doesn't mean changing necessarily but more, changing how you react, what goes through your mind.
weird how dates we set in our heads when we're younger get pushed back by reality and dreams become reinvented through time and...life.
i've always thought i'd grow out of my silliness but i realize now im stuck with it, it is who i am. but amidst all the craziness, i finally accept me for me. the good, the bad and the ugly.
i like that i'm finally starting to be OK with things just as they are. people, just as they are. situations, just as they are. and maybe by next year i'll be able to say that i'm not just starting to see things just as they are, but understand that it's just life. we'll see.
wonder where i'll be in a year. geographically, in my career, with my relationships.
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